Last year, when I turned the big five-oh, I was in Disney World with my sister. What an amazing way to ring in a new decade.
This year I decided to go a little more low key. I decided to sort of let the day come and go as it may.
I was happy when I received a call to sub on my birthday. The call came a few weeks ago. I would be hanging out with kindergartner's. Perfect!
On the night before my birthday I had decided that I really, really, really wanted to wear my flowers from last year on my head. There is something so feminine about wearing flowers! Something so outdoorsy! Something so me! Could I get away with it? I'm fifty-one now, should I do it? Or do I need to really grow up?
I decided to go for it!
Because I was subbing in my "home" school, I knew everyone would look at me and just say to themselves, yep, that's Lisa! Everyone who saw me said, "I like your flowers." If they didn't all ready know it, I told them, "Thanks! It's my birthday!" I'm sure if they hadn't all ready said to themselves, yep, that's Lisa...they did then.
What I am loving about myself and about teaching is that I can embrace my inner fun and share it with others. Others who can tell me, That's cool! I want to do that too! And I hope they will. Children need to have a safe place in which they can dare to be different. A place they can find themselves and not be made to feel wrong for being who they are. I feel a school can be and should be this place. I hadn't realized that I have a little bit of a free spirit in my soul. How cool! How fun! I don't want to be exactly like everyone else. I want to be me!
I am glad I am on the Eating, Praying and Loving journey while in my fifties.
P.S. I wore my flowers the entire day! I wore them while I was subbing, when I went out to eat dinner with my two children, and when I went to my divorce support group meeting. Although this birthday didn't top last year's Disney trip (honestly, none ever will), it was exactly perfect!