Weird, scary, eye opening, getting older...just a few words to cross my brain this week. Also, no-way-possible, OMG, and humm...maybe that's why we found those results...
Another word in my current vocabulary, menopause?. Note the question mark does need to be attached to the end of that word.
Yes, I did take a home pregnancy test this week. Yes, I am on day 45 of my normal 26 day cycle. Yes, my husband did have a vasectomy 13 years ago. No, I have not participated in any extra-curricular activities! Sammy Hagar hasn't knocked on my door yet.
As I sat waiting those two long minutes for the results I totally knew would be negative, I had one of those "Ahh-ha" moments. I suddenly thought, this is probably why we found those pregnancy test results from my mom when we were going through her house. She probably didn't think she was really pregnant. But, this is the first step in ruling things out. Mom ended up having a hysterectomy at the age of 50. According to what I have read, peri-menopause can start years before true menopause sets in. I am only 43. Is this early to start this cycle of my life? I can't ask my mom about her "issues" at my age. We didn't talk about such things. Mom wouldn't have used a "home" pregnancy test either. They may not have been very common then and if they were they certainly were costly and not completely reliable.
I am SO glad to know that I am not pregnant. I have never regretted the fact that my husband and I have decided to stop having kids when we did. It was the absolute right choice for me/us. Being pregnant was tough on my body. I do believe pregnancy exasperated my blood pressure issues. Also, I'll admit it, I am selfish. I want time alone with my husband again. I love the time we have with our kids, but I am looking forward to the day when it is just the two of us again.
On Monday afternoon I told my children what was up. I don't want them to think their dad and I were trying to get pregnant again. I want them to be informed. Shortly after that I sat in the orthodontist office waiting on my oldest as he had his retainer check up when my youngest called via cell phone. "I have news to share Mom," she said..."I started my period."