Today I am listing those few things I am thankful for.
I am thankful for: my daughter - I have a reason to watch romantic comedies my first born - he reminds me of myself double meanings - they bring corny-ness and laughter to my day fall colors - they remind me how nature adapts cat rubs - they make me feel needed sunshine - it's warmth fills me with peace my friends - just because I like them my husband - if I'm the yin, he's my yang biting my tongue - sometimes I need to be silent and just listen god - because no matter what happens, I have hope and faith
Once upon a time...there lived a sad peasant girl. She grew up the oldest of three children. Full of responsibility and good morals. When she grew up she found out that life is not fair. She had two children of her own and her youngest drove her wack-o!
The peasant girl was full of woe. If you just looked at her blog you could see it in her background choice.
Maybe someday the peasant girl will start to enjoy the world around her and not be so scared. What is there in life that we need? Nothing. We could just die. So, why change a background? Who cares? No one reads this anyway so who cares?
"I do!" Said a fair princess. "I love blogs, and pretty peasant girls! What else is there on the internet to read?" Life is great and everyone should get to change it up, or their backgrounds! Especially the sad boring ones, hint-hint!"
"I don't write with quotes! And I won't change my background until six years pass and Jasper comes to rescue me!"
"There is no Jasper! It's all in your head woman!"
Jasper is real...he just hasn't come into my life yet. But in six short years I will break free from this sadness that encumbers me and run free in the fields with my Jasper!
"You forgot your quotation marks, and you don't live by a field, and there is no Jasper!"
Dreams my dear. They are the little things that make life worth living....even if it's not fair. Now speaking of unfair...DO YOUR HOMEWORK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
"Never! You'll never catch me alive, Ha! Ha! Ha! I guess what I'm trying to say is: What is a rose without any thorns, there must be something bad to all good or else it is not worth pricking yourself to pick it. But Your blog is neither good nor worth looking at unless it has some petals to go with those thorns. So CHANGE YOUR BACKGROUND!!!!!!!"
Profound, but you still need to go do your homework. This conversation can go on another day. Until then...six more years and then ahh, Jasper!
No news is just no news when you are waiting to hear what is happening to a loved one in the hospital. You wish you could make time speed up, but then again, you think maybe I don't want time to speed up. And the worst part is not being able to do a darn thing except wait.
Patience...I wish I had more, or better handle on my lack of.
I wonder if those closest to the situation really know how much I care or how upset/worried I am. Do they know how much I want to be there to lend support but don't want to over step my bounds or step on their toes? Do they know how much I wish they'd call me several times a day with an update, yet I fear my ringing phone. Do they know how much I feel I need to be strong but don't think I can face death so up close and personal yet? I know I am still dealing with my emotions from last October and November. I really do wish that all the people I know or will come to know never had to die. Wouldn't that make things easier? But life is not easy and it's certainly not fair. We build relationships only to have them succumb to the reality of life and this world. And, I know that those closest to the situation really have no control of things either. They are just closer to the situation and probably feeling just like me.
I need to get out and walk. I will play my music loud and try not to think about my waiting to hear any news. No news also builds patience, I think.