Click Here for Details...ha! Not so simple. No link today my friends.
I know this sounds like a big subject.
Love, is big.
Personally, I find that I can give love, I just don't know how to accept love back. At least this is how I feel. I can give love in certain situations; I do love my children, my siblings, my nieces and nephews, my students, my job, my pets, etc. The one person I have trouble loving...myself.
On-line advice suggests to love yourself first. Coincidentally, my therapist told me this same thing when she was in my life! That sounds a bit narcissistic to me. In order to really love, I must forgive. Forgiving oneself is hard.
This year I will forgive myself.
I realize the past is the past.
I did the best I could at that time.
I do not regret loving.
I am ready to truly love me.
I am a happy person. I am happy with how my life is turning out.
The next step for me is to forgive me.
It would be nice to have that DIY right about now. As with all things in life, this is a process, and I must go through all the stages/steps. (NOTE: There are lots of on-line sources detailing how to forgive yourself...NOT linking to any.)
It's easier to forgive someone else, than it is to forgive oneself.
Self-forgiveness...have I mentioned this is hard?
I am guilty of not thinking of myself enough.
So starts my process...
I love writing, but I have not made my time to write a priority.
About six months ago I changed that, I now carve out time weekly to write.
I love music...all kinds.
I have made a point of seeing artists I want to see, when I want to see them.
It was AMAZING to see Ed Sheeran live last July.
Straight No Chaser is a December must do for me.
Expressing myself through dance is something else I have always wanted to do.
I spent years and years being on the sidelines as my daughter danced. I did not want to be a ballerina. I did want to feel the rhythm of the music fill my soul,
to twist and to turn,
to glide and to sway.
I have musicality.
I want to be connected to another, as we both feel the music pulse through our veins.
I do not have aspirations to be a world famous dancer.
However, I do aspire to share the language of music and dance.
I love sharing time with my friends!
Again, who knew I had so many friends? I did. I just didn't allow myself the time to share with them. Breakfasts, dinners, trivia nights, dancing, game playing, book clubs, texting, chatting on the phone, planning weekend get-togethers...the list is broad and endless.
|My breakfast buddy! We have a few favorite spots in town.|
I typically write on Saturday nights.
Yesterday I had errands, and didn't get to my spot until late. My mind was filled with thoughts, but I didn't get all I wanted out of my brain. Pressure! My blogging spot was closing for the night.
I was also feeling stuck in my thoughts.
...and then today...
I found that DIY/How to manual on love in a place I hadn't expected.
While sitting in church, a familiar reading started...